Falling

so i think i've really found someone... and he likes to talk when we're on the phone, like not just listen and pretend hes there, but like engage in the conversation. and he's so funny.. :-( but its a good thing he likes talking on the phone b/c he lives 2 hours away so its kinda hard to just go over and say goodnight or something. but i'm so excited!! hes coming on friday to watch me play some tennis. he like i get off work at like 10 so i can be there like by noon or 1 cuz i wanna talk before you play. i play at like 4 and 6 hehe. so hes like i'll get you all warmed up and stuff. hes so sweet!!! but i think i'm really falling for him. which isn't always a good thing. b/c i usually fall too fast and then i get hurt. but i cant help it. i've kinda been praying about it, but not nearly enough... I need to work on that. and he loves baseball!!! hehe its so cute... you'd have to hear him talk about it.

Father help me to listen to you and my heart Lord. show me the direction clearly that you're pointing. sometimes its kinda fuzzy. i need to know if i should even try to pursue this relationship. b/c yea i think i really like him, but before you told me not to be in one. was that just w/some guys in particular, or just for my sake. Father God help me to be focused on you in everything i do. right now let me play tennis to the best i can, all for you God!! Father work and shine you're light through me! I'm really trying to listen to what you have planned for my life. but sometimes my emotions and hormones get in the way. help me to stay focused on you Lord!! You are so great and mighty!! i want to live for you!!! help me to do that... please guide my words and my actions so they might be more Christ-like!! thank you Lord AMEN

so yea... Brent, hehe mmmmmmmmmm well i think i'm gonna leave it at that and not think about anything that could ruin my moment. so i'm off to bed, hopefully i'll finish my book. Diary of a Teenage Girl, i'm on book 2 right now of 8. i've already read them all but they're just so good i had to read them again. so if anyone wants to know more about them let me know and you can for surely borrow them!! ok well goodnight and God Bless everyone!!!

~k